There are times when we are being told to do something by God that we just don’t want to do. Even if we are being convicted heavily by God and you sense so much guilt, we still don’t listen to Him.
I found myself this morning struggling with facing my fears of dealing with all the lies that I have created in my life. I can’t remember the exact day I learned to lie to my parents afraid of being caught doing something that is not pleasing to them and receive their anger with tormenting words that will wound my heart so badly. I don’t want to hear harsh words expressing their disappointment with me for not doing things right or for doing something bad according to them.
Growing up without a parent telling me to read the Bible and to know God and His words, I relied on myself how to run my life and made choices that were not pleasing to God. Yes, I quite knew at that time the Ten Commandments and had to memorize it so I could pass the exam on my Religion subject. I knew the commandment Do Not Lie but even so, I chose to lie and not tell the truth in situations where my fear overrules me. Fear to be judged, fear to be seen as weak, fear of being rejected, fear to get caught, fear to make people get mad at me. There were just so many fears that I had implanted in my mind and my heart that convinces me to lie rather than just tell the truth. I find more convenience in lying than telling the truth. I feel like I have mastered the art of deception and carefully covering up all the lies that I have been doing. The broken promises I failed to deliver that broke the hearts of people who trusted and relied to me.
Clearly, I haven’t been obeying God’s commandment not to lie and one thing is for sure, the devil doesn’t want me to obey God.
Now, I feel the burden of carrying all the lies and deceptions that I have made. I am being confronted by the Holy Spirit to deal with it and put a stop. I just feel so sick and tired worrying about the people I have lied to finding out that I have lied to them. I feel so much guilt for the people whom I have disappointed with promises I made to them that I broke.
And I know that there are people like me out there looking for ways how to put a stop with the lies they have been living with. Like a married man or a woman having an affair who wants to put an end to his/her affair but is so afraid to admit his sin. A student who has stopped going to school and has not been honest about it with his/her parents. A new employee who faked his/her credentials to get the job.
When you feel like there’s nothing more good in you because of all the lies that you have been living with, remember to turn to God. James 4:7 says “Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.”
Sometimes its hard to resist the temptation of lying in exchange for the inconvenience we might have to deal with in telling the truth. Who wants to receive scolding, anger, disappointment and frustrations from people whom we had to tell the truth? That is where the devil sets in, convincing us that its easier to lie than to tell the truth so as not to feel any pain or inconvenience and then you try to cover up those lies. You convince yourself that as long as you don’t get caught lying, no one will ever know and you’re okay.
And this is what I thought for all those years that I have been lying and deceiving myself and other people. But as I accepted Jesus Christ as my savior and as I slowly build my personal relationship with God, His holy spirit has been working in my spiritual battle of being transformed to the person that He wants me to be and that includes putting a stop to all the lies that I have created in my life.
This is where the struggle of obeying God and facing those fears that overruled me which kept me from living with the truth. But because I am a believer in Jesus Christ, I know that God lives in me. He has given me the power to resist Satan, and Gods promise is that Satan will flee.
So just like me who wants to put a stop from all the lies in my life, I will hold on to God’s word and promise, “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness” 1 John 1:9. Do not ever think that because you have been living with lies and deceptions, you cannot come to God anymore. You cannot also rely on yourself to eliminate all those lies and deceptions before you come to God thinking that you need to come clean to Him before He accepts you.
You have to understand that even before we were born, we were already sinners and for us to be redeemed from our sins, Jesus Christ had to die on the cross to pay for our sins. Ephesians 1:7 “Through the blood of his Son, we are set free from our sins. God forgives our failures because of his overflowing kindness.” It is for you to accept His gift of salvation so you can come to God and have a personal relationship with Him. Doing good works on your own will never cover up the lies you made. It is only thru Jesus Christ and believing in Him, the only way where we can have the forgiveness of God.
When you don’t want to do something you know you should do, stand firm against the devil and then submit to God. When you do, you will find the power to do that difficult thing He is asking you.
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